Tag Archives: cancer

Rollercoaster

I used rollercoaster as a title, and then I thought “Strange kind of rollercoaster – it only seems to be going down”. It’s been a tough few months. I started capecitapine in March, and then had a massive, overwhelming life-threatening … Continue reading

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Too many losses

As well as blogging here, I write poems at fmmewritespoems.wordpress.com. I also host poetry prompts at dVerse. This is the first prompt I ever wrote: https://wordpress.com/post/dversepoets.com/17153. I asked people to write poetry inspired by the art of Fay Collins. I’m … Continue reading

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Docetaxel

So, here we are at the start of Week 3 of my 3 week cycle. Side effects? Yes: Look at the picture. Can you see when the fatigue started to lift? Oh, the fatigue. Leg pain. Like my bones were … Continue reading

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A poem about cancer, or anything really.

4am and I’m filled with itthe taste in my mouthlike I’m stuffed with coinseach finger filled with itno4am and it’s here in the roomwith me I’ve been swallowedby cancer I’m a nodulefloating in a sea of cancerI breathe it in … Continue reading

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Day 10

I went for a walk today, with my friend Julie. Get yourself a Julie. This is the kind of friend Julie is: When we first moved to Devon 15 years ago, I was training for the Moonwalk. The Moonwalk, ironically … Continue reading

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Palliative chemotherapy. Ugh.

Yes. Next week. Meeting on Friday. Had my bloods done on Tuesday, ECG just before I pick up my first course of capecitabine. I got my information leaflets through yesterday. I’m not wildly enthusiastic about this turn of events. We … Continue reading

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Poetry Friday

Just yes. Poetry Friday

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Cancer toolbox – 1. YOU app

This is the first of an occasional series, in which I share some of the things that have helped me remain active, sane, positive and cheerful over the last few years. I mean, it’s pretty crap having metastatic cancer – … Continue reading

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What am I?

There’s no word for what I am. There are two main cancer narratives. The first is that you are diagnosed, you battle bravely, you defeat cancer, you are a survivor. The second is that you are diagnosed, you battle bravely, … Continue reading

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Bad. Just bad.

It’s bad. I’m in a funny kind of limbo waiting to hear exactly how bad, but it’s bad. The disease has progressed in my lungs, and there’s some evidence of bony changes. What I don’t know is whether there’s anything … Continue reading

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