Author Archives: sarahsouthwest

About sarahsouthwest

I'm now in my early 50s. I started writing again as a way of exploring the world, and feel that over the last 2 years I have really grown as a writer. By day I work with children and young people with mental health difficulties. I juggle my own two children, my work, my writing practice, generally managing to keep all the balls up in the air.

Rollercoaster

I used rollercoaster as a title, and then I thought “Strange kind of rollercoaster – it only seems to be going down”. It’s been a tough few months. I started capecitapine in March, and then had a massive, overwhelming life-threatening … Continue reading

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Too many losses

As well as blogging here, I write poems at fmmewritespoems.wordpress.com. I also host poetry prompts at dVerse. This is the first prompt I ever wrote: https://wordpress.com/post/dversepoets.com/17153. I asked people to write poetry inspired by the art of Fay Collins. I’m … Continue reading

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Missing out.

I’m supposed to be in Ireland. Specifically, I’m supposed to be in County Clare in a big house by the sea with my husband and my kids and a great rolling crowd of eating, drinking, laughing, chatting, arguing, joking in-laws. … Continue reading

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Back on The Cure for Sleep.

I’m so honoured to be back on The Cure for Sleep. Please check it out here: https://thecureforsleep.com/july-issue-on-promises/#SarahConnor. Tanya Shadrick is creating and curating a wonderful, safe space to talk about important things.

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Docetaxel

So, here we are at the start of Week 3 of my 3 week cycle. Side effects? Yes: Look at the picture. Can you see when the fatigue started to lift? Oh, the fatigue. Leg pain. Like my bones were … Continue reading

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Choosing Doxetaxel

I had my review with my oncologist this week. Nobody seemed massively enthusiastic about me re-starting capecitabine, after my near death experience with it. We’ve put it on hold for the moment, in the knowledge that it worked on the … Continue reading

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Adventures with capecitabine

Chemotherapies are poisons. The art of chemo is to kill the tumour before you kill the patient. I’ve had 2 courses of capecitabine now. The first was OK. The second was a nightmare. As part of the work-up for capecitabine, … Continue reading

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A poem about cancer, or anything really.

4am and I’m filled with itthe taste in my mouthlike I’m stuffed with coinseach finger filled with itno4am and it’s here in the roomwith me I’ve been swallowedby cancer I’m a nodulefloating in a sea of cancerI breathe it in … Continue reading

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Day 10

I went for a walk today, with my friend Julie. Get yourself a Julie. This is the kind of friend Julie is: When we first moved to Devon 15 years ago, I was training for the Moonwalk. The Moonwalk, ironically … Continue reading

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Week 1

Week 1 of capecitabine. Well, so far, so not so bad. The side effects have built up a little bit over the week, but overall they are OK. A funny taste in my mouth, and a slight tingling. A slightly … Continue reading

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