This has been a surprisingly powerful practice for me. Firstly, there’s the pleasure in writing about something I love. How indulgent!
Secondly, the memory string. I love things because of their associations. Everything I’ve chosen has either been something connected to pleasure right now, or something that brings memories trailing after it. I do a piece of free-writing every day, and then follow it up with a blog post – expanding, editing, explaining – so I get double the memory hit and double the pleasure.
The third thing that has been really important is that it’s given me a chance to review my life. I have had a rich, joyful, privileged life. I have been lucky, but I’ve also made good choices; I’ve had goals and worked towards them, and achieved them; I’ve been brave.
That has been so hard to hold onto. Over the last couple of years, I’ve slipped into the pattern of thinking of myself as unlucky. I’ve struggled to find goals. I’ve felt anxious and afraid. To see my life as a positive thing has been so precious, so important. I’m grateful that I’ve given myself that opportunity.
Empowering, positive and refreshing Sarah, glad to hear you’re giving yourself that opportunity.
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